Constellation — Silence
Episode 13: March 23, 2026
Previously: Priya experienced her first heartbreak when John Brennan — the only man whose thoughts she couldn't hear — gently rejected her, explaining that at forty-two he had already "become" while she was still "becoming." Her sisters Maeve and Ji-woo held her on a curb in Mexico, then brought her home to heal. Now, two weeks later, Priya navigates college life while pretending she's fine — even as the Navy comes calling with a request that will test everything she believes about consent, ethics, and who she wants to be.
Monday, March 23, 2026 — 9:15 AM
Two weeks since Mexico. Fourteen days since I made a fool of myself in a restaurant that smelled like cilantro and heartbreak. I've been counting. Not on purpose — my brain just does it, tracking the distance between then and now like maybe if I get far enough away it'll stop hurting.
Spoiler: it doesn't.
I'm in Intro to Microeconomics, surrounded by 200 undergrads, and every single one of them is broadcasting. The guy two rows up is hungover and regretting last night's texts to his ex. The girl next to me is spiraling about a paper due tomorrow — I can feel her anxiety like static electricity against my skin. And the beautiful idiot in the letterman jacket keeps glancing back at me, his thoughts a lazy river of speculation.
Priya's secret thought: He's wondering if I'm "the weird psychic girl" and whether that makes me "freaky in bed." Fantastic. Really flattering. I'm so glad I dragged myself out of bed for this.
Professor Martinez is explaining supply curves, her voice a distant hum beneath the cacophony of two hundred inner monologues. I used to be good at filtering. Before Mexico, I could tune it down to background noise, like a radio playing in another room. Now everything feels louder. Raw. Like the volume knob broke and I can't turn it back down.
I miss the silence.
I hate that I miss the silence.
The guy in front of me shifts in his seat and I catch a stray thought — something about the curve of my neck, wondering what my hair smells like. It's not malicious. It's not even particularly crude by college-boy standards. But I still want to crawl out of my skin.
Priya's secret thought: This is the thing nobody tells you about telepathy. It's not the evil thoughts that wear you down. It's the ordinary ones. The constant, grinding awareness that everyone around you is a mess of wants and fears and petty judgments, all broadcasting at full volume, all the time. John was quiet. His mind was like a still lake. I could breathe around him. I could just... be.
My phone buzzes. A text from Maeve: You okay? You feel spiky.
I type back: Fine. Econ is just loud today.
Three dots appear, then disappear. She knows I'm lying. She always knows. But she lets me have it anyway, because that's what sisters do.
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Monday, March 23, 2026 — 12:30 PM
The campus coffee shop is packed with the lunch rush. Ji-woo found us a corner booth — she always finds the best spots, her locator abilities extending to optimal seating arrangements — and now the three of us are crammed together with overpriced lattes and a shared plate of mediocre scones.
Ji-woo: So Marcus Chen asked about you again.
Priya: Good for Marcus Chen.
Ji-woo: He's cute. Pre-med. Has that whole "gentle nerd" thing going on.
Priya: I'm focusing on school right now. Boys are a distraction.
Maeve snorts into her latte. I can feel her precognitive sense flickering — she's seeing possible timelines where I actually said yes to Marcus, timelines where I let myself try again. She doesn't share what she sees. She never does unless it matters.
Maeve: "Boys are a distraction." That's your official position?
Priya: That's my official position.
Priya's secret thought: The unofficial position is that I lay awake last night thinking about what it would feel like to be held. Not by John — I've mostly stopped torturing myself with that specific fantasy — but by anyone. Just... arms around me. Warmth. The oxytocin hit of human contact. I'm nineteen years old and I'm touch-starved and I can't stop thinking about romance even though I know, I KNOW, that dating with my abilities is basically impossible. How do you build intimacy with someone when you can hear every doubt, every comparison, every fleeting attraction to someone else? How do you fall in love when you know exactly what they think of you before they even figure it out themselves?
Ji-woo: For what it's worth, his thoughts are pretty clean. I overheard him thinking about you last week and it was mostly "she seems smart" and "I wonder if she'd want to study together."
Priya: You were listening to his thoughts? That's my thing.
Ji-woo: No, I was locating his thoughts. There's a difference. I just... happened to notice where his attention was. Geographically speaking.
I throw a piece of scone at her. She catches it and eats it, grinning.
Maeve: You don't have to date anyone. You don't have to do anything you're not ready for. But "I'm focusing on school" is not the same as "I'm healing," and we both know which one is actually true.
Priya's secret thought: I hate when she's right. Which is always. Precognitives are the worst.
Priya: I'm fine.
Maeve: You're not fine. You're functional. There's a difference.
I don't have a response to that. So I drink my latte and pretend the conversation is over, even though we all know it isn't.
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Monday, March 23, 2026 — 4:45 PM
The Navy sedan is parked outside our trailer when I get home from class. Black, government plates, tinted windows — the whole cliché. I spot it from half a block away and my stomach drops.
Priya's secret thought: Please let this be about submarines. Please let this be another rescue mission. Something clean. Something I can do without hating myself afterward.
Commander Sarah Webb is waiting on our tiny porch, looking deeply out of place in her crisp uniform against the backdrop of faded siding and potted succulents. She's in her fifties, silver-streaked hair pulled back tight, and her mind is disciplined but not silent — I can hear the edges of her thoughts, carefully controlled. She's had training. Counter-telepathy protocols. The Navy has whole programs for this now.
Webb: Miss Sharma. Thank you for seeing me.
Priya: I don't remember agreeing to a meeting.
Webb: Consider this an informal conversation. May I come in?
I want to say no. But Maeve's voice echoes in my head from last week: The Navy is going to keep coming whether we like it or not. Better to know what they want than to wonder.
I unlock the door and let her inside.
Our living room still looks like a tornado hit it — moving boxes half-unpacked, Ji-woo's art supplies scattered across the coffee table, Maeve's calculus textbooks stacked in precarious towers. Commander Webb surveys the chaos with carefully neutral eyes and sits on the edge of our secondhand couch like she's afraid of catching something.
Webb: I'll get straight to the point. We have a situation that requires your specific abilities.
Priya: Another submarine?
Webb: No. This is internal. We've identified potential security concerns within several classified research programs. Personnel who may be sharing information with foreign actors. We need someone who can... verify loyalties. Quickly and discreetly.
The request sits in the air between us like a dead thing.
Priya's secret thought: She wants me to read minds. Not to find missing children or locate crash survivors. She wants me to spy on American citizens — scientists, researchers, people who signed up to serve their country — and report back on their private thoughts. Their doubts. Their fears. Their secrets that have nothing to do with national security.
Priya: You want me to be a thought police officer.
Webb: I want you to help protect sensitive programs from foreign interference. There's a difference.
Priya: Is there?
Webb's thoughts slip for just a moment — frustration, calculation, a flash of this would be so much easier if they'd just cooperate — before her training kicks back in and the walls go up.
Webb: You'd be compensated generously. And it would go a long way toward building goodwill with the program. The Navy has invested considerable resources in Constellation. Some of my colleagues feel that investment should yield more... reliable returns.
Priya's secret thought: There it is. The threat wrapped in velvet. Play nice or we'll make your life difficult. I've heard variations of this from every government handler we've had since the Incursion. They think because they made us, they own us.
Priya: Let me make sure I understand. You want me to use my telepathy to read the private thoughts of people who haven't consented to being read. To spy on their innermost minds and report back anything you deem suspicious. To violate their mental privacy without their knowledge, for purposes they'd never agree to if asked.
Webb: When you phrase it that way—
Priya: There's no other way to phrase it. That's what you're asking.
I stand up. My hands are shaking slightly, but my voice is steady.
Priya: No.
Webb: Miss Sharma—
Priya: I said no. I won't do it. Not for money, not for goodwill, not for whatever veiled threats you're about to make. My abilities don't give me the right to violate people's minds, and being born in a Navy lab doesn't make me Navy property.
Webb's expression doesn't change, but I feel the shift in her thoughts — surprise, reassessment, a grudging flicker of something that might be respect.
Webb: You understand this refusal will be noted.
Priya: Note it. Put it in my file. I'm sure there's a whole section for "uncooperative assets."
She stands, smoothing her uniform with precise movements.
Webb: You're young. You still think principles are simple. That there are clear lines between right and wrong. Life will teach you otherwise.
Priya: Maybe. But today isn't that day.
I open the door for her. She pauses on the threshold, turning back.
Webb: For what it's worth — and this is off the record — I didn't think you'd say yes. But I had to ask.
Then she's gone, the black sedan pulling away, and I'm alone in my messy living room with my racing heart and my shaking hands and the strange, fierce pride of having said no to something that felt deeply, fundamentally wrong.
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Monday, March 23, 2026 — 11:30 PM
Maeve finds me on the back steps at nearly midnight, wrapped in a blanket, staring at the stars. The mobile home park is quiet at this hour — just the hum of distant traffic and the occasional bark of someone's dog.
Maeve: Ji-woo said the Navy came by.
Priya: News travels fast.
Maeve: She felt you get angry from three blocks away. Said you were "broadcasting like a radio tower."
I scoot over, making room. She sits beside me, pulling half my blanket over her legs.
Priya: They wanted me to spy on other programs. Read people's minds without their consent. Report back on anyone who seemed "disloyal."
Maeve: And you said no.
Priya: Of course I said no.
Maeve: I saw it. The timeline where you said yes. Where you let them turn you into what they wanted.
Priya's secret thought: She sees timelines the way I hear thoughts — unbidden, unavoidable, a constant stream of possibilities branching off from every moment. I wonder if it's exhausting for her too. Seeing all the ways things could go wrong.
Priya: What happened? In that timeline?
Maeve: You don't want to know.
Priya: That bad?
Maeve: You stopped being you. That's the worst thing that can happen to anyone.
We sit in silence for a while. The stars are sharp tonight, the late March air still carrying winter's bite.
Priya: I'm not fine.
Maeve: I know.
Priya: I still think about him. John. Not because I want him anymore — I think that part is actually healing. But because he was quiet. His mind was the only quiet place I've ever found. And I don't know if I'll ever find that again.
Maeve: You might not. You might spend your whole life hearing everyone's thoughts and never finding another person with natural shields strong enough to give you silence.
Priya: Wow. Thanks for the pep talk.
Maeve: I'm not done. You might not find silence. But you might find something else. Someone whose thoughts you actually want to hear. Someone whose inner voice becomes as familiar and comforting as your own. Someone who isn't quiet, but whose noise feels like... home.
Priya's secret thought: I want to believe that's possible. I want to believe there's someone out there whose thoughts wouldn't feel like an intrusion. Whose inner world I could know completely and love anyway. But right now, sitting here in the dark, it feels like a fairy tale. A nice story we tell ourselves to make the loneliness bearable.
Priya: You see that? In the timelines?
Maeve: I see possibilities. Lots of them. Some are beautiful. Some are heartbreaking. Most are somewhere in between. But in almost all of them — the ones where you end up okay — you're not alone. And the person beside you? They're not quiet. They're just... yours.
I lean my head on her shoulder. She wraps an arm around me.
Priya: I love you. You know that, right?
Maeve: I know. I love you too. Even when you're spiky and broadcasting heartbreak at three hundred decibels.
I laugh — a real laugh, the first one in weeks that doesn't feel forced.
Priya: I really am focusing on school, though. That part wasn't a lie.
Maeve: I know. And that's fine. Heal however you need to heal. Date when you're ready, or don't date at all. Just... don't close the door forever, okay? You're nineteen. You've got so much becoming left to do.
Priya's secret thought: Becoming. That word again. John used it to explain why we couldn't be together — I was still becoming, and he'd already become. I hated it then. It felt like a fancy way of saying I wasn't enough yet. But sitting here with Maeve, under these cold stars, I think I finally understand what he meant. I'm not finished. I'm not supposed to be finished. And maybe that's not a limitation. Maybe it's a gift. The chance to become someone who can handle this — the noise, the loneliness, the impossible weight of hearing everyone's truth. Someone who doesn't need silence to feel whole.
The back door creaks open. Ji-woo appears, holding three mugs of hot chocolate, somehow having located exactly what we needed without being asked.
Ji-woo: Room for one more?
We scoot apart, making space. She wedges between us, distributing the mugs, her presence warm and steady and exactly right.
Three girls on a back step. Stars overhead. Chocolate warming our hands.
I'm not fine. But I'm not alone. And right now, in this moment, that feels like enough.
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Tuesday, March 24, 2026 — 9:15 AM
I'm back in Econ. Same seat, same professor, same two hundred broadcasting minds. The guy in the letterman jacket is still wondering about me. The anxious girl is still panicking about papers. The hungover guy has moved on to regretting a different set of texts.
Nothing has changed.
Everything has changed.
My phone buzzes. A text from an unknown number:
This is Marcus Chen. Ji-woo gave me your number (don't be mad at her). I know you're focusing on school, but there's a study group for the Econ midterm on Thursday. No pressure. Just studying. I make really good flashcards.
Priya's secret thought: He makes really good flashcards. That's his selling point. Not his looks, not his pre-med status, not some smooth pickup line. Flashcards. That's either the most pathetic thing I've ever heard or the most endearing. I genuinely can't tell which.
I don't respond right away. I put my phone back in my pocket and try to focus on supply curves. But I'm smiling slightly — just a little, just at the corners — and when Maeve texts me fifteen minutes later with a simple ? emoji, I know she's seen something in the timelines shift.
I'm not ready. I might not be ready for a long time.
But I'm not closing the door.
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